Welcome
Posted 5 years ago at 12:18 pm. 1 comment
I figure it this way. I’m not a minister. And I’m not a martial arts teacher. Simply said, I’m me. I do ministry and martial arts, and a few other things as well. It’s an equivocation, to be sure, but the difference is a big one as far as my mental and spiritual health goes.
So much so that I asked my son Jared–a wizard at things technical and true–to put together a personal blog. While I’m not certain that anyone will read it–is it important that someone reads this, I’m not sure, and if someone does won’t that change things?–I am convinced that if I continue to think that I am such and such, I’ll never get to the place where I’m completely comfortable with myself.
I hear you saying it. “Can anyone feel completely comfortable with themselves?” That, I’m certain while I hesitate on principle to be so certain, is the point of it all.
Five or six years ago, when I was in parish ministry as a full-time endeavor–with a staff of thirty-two expectant ones, a million dollar budget to manage and a congregation of a thousand or more folks driving both–I probably would have said “no.” “It’s the journey,” or something like that. But a half-dozen years later and a few defining moments and rigorously derived revelations along the way, I’ve come to understand that while self-discovery is the point of it all–and we should probably capitalize “self” when we talk this way, since the mystery of Self is that spiritual and profound–there actually is a destination. And a part of that blissful place is self-acceptance.
Do I like myself? I do. Am I comfortable with what I’m doing? I am. Do I like the people I’m with? You bet. There all good questions. And I’ve finally come to the place–outside of the church, away from someone else’s demands, and close enough to my own heart that I can hear “the divine breathings,” as one Quaker writer put it though the divinity of it all is still a bit of a bother–where I can finally separate me from the ideas, responsibilities and activities that move me.
Can you do that?
I can only speak for myself while I’m hoping the same for you, but I’m still working on it. I’m amazed that despite it all I’m more and more satisfied with my responses when the questions are asked, no matter what other people think or even say.
Welcome to my blog. In some ways I’d like to think nobody will read this. I’ll have a better chance of keeping things honest.
Namaste.
I was amazed and sublimed, but mainly pleased when I found out where “Anticipation” is, as is one of my best pices ever, maybe because this pice was born when I was going trough big changes in my life. After two years in a long distance relationship with the man whom is now my husband and the love of my life, I decided to leave behind everything, my beloved family, my friends, my job, my house, me brand new car, the land where I was born and lived for 50 years. This was overwhealming and also a big shock of culture and the detachment of everything that I was and know for all my life. Until the day I arrived here in June 2003 .
ANTICIPATION…this is waht is behind this pice.
I have to tell you that my brave decision was worthwile as I am happy and fullfiled with the man I marrie, Tom.
After all this years I fell that my home is here now, as is where my heart is.
I feel proud and happy in my heart to know how much this pice had to say to you, this is the reason why love what I do.
My very best for you and all your loving family….
Socorro